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MONDAY, 161109

10:26 AM

Time for another 4D3N outfield! Starting from today onwards, I will be left with 3 outfields to low-key in this one month's time. I'm gonna take one-day off out next month, stay out for a night and fly back to Singapore the next evening. Damn looking forward to my next home leave.

This month's schedule is tight, but I can somehow manage it, if I prioritize my time, my work and activities well.

Hope everything goes smooth for the next three days.

Gonna do some upgrades to my laptop when I get back home.

Sunday, 081109

10:14 PM

The troopers are here, the frame starts once again. 3 more back to back and it will be low-key for sure. Can't wait for December to come seriously; fly back to Singapore to clear annual leave, meet up with friends, celebrate Christmas then go back to Brunei again to complete my posting.

38 days counting to my home leave once again. Singapore, here I come!!!

FRIDAY, 301009

11:18 AM

Currently on off in the city, just for a day and I have to return to camp. Alone can be good, no one can disturb.

One month and a week left to low-key, can't wait for that to come anyway. And the new bunk, when will it be completed?

Feeling more and more boring, sick and tired already, yet no one knows why am I feeling that.

December, december, come quickly, cannot wait liao.
Hope someone who understands me will be able to find out why.

Tuesday, 061009

9:56 PM

I'm finally back in camp after a nine-day outfield venture, but I returned very late in the middle of the night. I was thinking taking off-out the next day but my wish was realised. It became official duty instead of off-out.

Couldn't sleep after reaching camp, but fell alseep around five in the morning. If the transport didn't break down, I would've been sleeping on the bed soundly and dreaming.

One thing I forgot to do was that I forgot to drop a message to my mum I will be outfield for nine days. My sister and mum were so worried that they called up the army to locate me and make sure that I call back when I come back.

Today went to JAC to complete my official duty then head to Gadong to get my outfield stuff, as usual.

It started to rain before I was about to board the boat back to Bangar.

Nothing else to say.

Thursday, 240909

10:48 PM

Another week has passed, but it also means the end of low-key in my camp, and tomorrow shall come a battalion of soldiers coming my camp. I will be at outfield for ten days, hope no one comes and sub me because I want to be freaking left alone out in the jungles. Hope this battalion training ends quickly.

Went to catch G-Force this afternoon just to kill my time.

I'm getting freaking bored and moodless day by day.

Rejection hurt me the most during that time.

I hope to have another love if I can, but I can't now.

Thursday, 170909

3:42 PM

My bonus has been confirmed and finalised! It will be on the 17th Dec to 28th Dec which makes it more than 10 days of leave, including the annual leaves that I have to clear and the weekends that I can whack as hard as possible.

Went for a LP maintainence three days ago and returned to camp yesterday afternoon. Before that, I noticed that my left arm has swelled and looks very different from my right arm. I was having a tremendous stomachache while waiting for the chopper to come and pick us up and fly back to camp. Upon landing, I threw my field pack onto the floor and headed for the toilet. I was so in a hurry that I quickly bath and go for my guard duty.

As for today, having taking a long nap, I went to see the MO for my swelling arm. Nothing serious, just that my left arm's being wrapped with a bandage and a ice pack and given medicine to stop the swelling and reduce the itchiness.

Wednesday, 090909

11:52 AM

Today is a special day where the day, the month and the year are the same and formed one date.

This is what happened last month.

After I closed down my station to return to camp, where the Commander came to inspect how I'm doing in my area, a lot of things happened the next few days and it's countless till that I don't want to talk about it. I took OFF ouf to relieve myself.

When the infantry frame left, another commando frame enters the camp the next morning.

Work was okay as usual, but I still can't forgive the fact that I'm rejected. I still can't get over with until a nice girl. Anyway, all of these have to depend on "fate". Any nice girl to intro? Not too young or near my age can already.

Waves and waves of troubles... when can they be over? Low-key?

Battalion frame is coming at the end of the month, but by the time when it comes, I will be fully prepared because my senior said that it's scary than the usual normal frames. Casualties everywhere, equipment can be lent to someone else and even lose it before you can know.

I have decided to make a trip back to Singapore for bonus during December, most probably will be two weeks as well as spending my Christmas and New Year. Time to meet up with my friends again and look at IT gadgets, and also getting my laptop fixed, can't stand the sound coming from the fan.

Saturday, 22nd August, 2009

2:22 PM

Ever since the training starts again, I haven't been doing well or focusing on my job. Opened and closed store from outfield, forget to bring to this and spoil that, now there's a possibility that I will be given punishment for doing my job well or defying orders from higher authority. This is the most cocked up week that I ever had.

I have been feeling heart-broken, very terribly, due to the fact that she has found someone new already, but not me. Why not me instead of my junior? Shit-ass. If someone can stay by my side, perhaps I will be able to find back my concentration. The end of next month will be the most busiest and fierce time I will ever have during my outfield duty.

Monday, 17th August, 2009

12:58 PM

After 4 years of waiting, this girl that I have been admiring told me that she has no feelings for me. What a joke! Then what for I have waited!? Someone intruded between me and her and got her just like that? This is greatest joke I had in my 21 years of life.

My friends told me to forget about her and just get on with my life. In their view of point, they might be right, but if I don't do something to make myself feel better, I will never get on with my life well.

Alt+A

Clement, watch out, I will be coming for you soon, just keep a watchout.

Thursday, 30th July, 2009

11:33 PM

Saturday, 25th July, 2009

I Went out early in the morning, around 6am but reached Sim Lim Square at 10am, most of the shops were not opened yet so I took a walk all over the building. After that, I made my way to Funan.

From there, I bought a new laptop, after walking the entire building like what I did earlier. It's a Gateway 17" gaming laptop. I decided to go back to Jurong Point since I'm meeting up with Xiang Lin to get a present for Hui Ching.

Back at home, I started the configuration on my new laptop. It took me all the way into the night to get it done.

Monday, 27th July, 2009

Went to Sim Lim Square again, but this time, I went there to get myself some essential items that I have to bring back to Brunei next week.

The next day, I found this little bird outside my house after buying shoes from Jurong Point. It couldn't fly and was chirping for help.

I put it inside a box and fed it with tiny bits of bread and I took a nap after that. The moment when I woke up, the bird was gone, must have flown away while I'm sleeping.